I told myself before I left the house. I will NOT have a doughnut, but I wondered if I could do it. I scanned the cafeteria for Facebook friends. The coast was clear. I thought, "I could eat one and no one would ever know." We all know that's not true though. I would know. Once I was resolved to chatting with Jake while he ate THREE DELICIOUS, AMAZING, SWEET doughnuts, I started to have a little inner pity party. "It's not fair! Look at all these other Moms eating doughnuts! It's only one...one won't make me fat...or kill me...or ruin everything." These were the voices in my head. I tried to talk to Jake so I couldn't hear them, but my inner fat girl talks really loud and she likes attention.
As bad as it felt to sit there, it felt really good to walk out having kept my word...not to my friends on Facebook...but to myself. There's power and happiness in self control. There's freedom in making a choice and sticking to it. There's peace in going through the day proud rather than carrying regrets after a few moments of joy. Don't short change yourself. Have faith in your ability to choose and follow through. Relish the power that grows every time you make a choice to do the right thing...whether it's a food choice or a choice of whether or not to hit the gym. Small choices can make a big difference.
